Wednesday, August 20, 2008
happy la
today i have been tinkin abt this gal. although my frenz say le let me wake up frm daydreaming la. i'm happy la coz i chit chat with my ex finally. coz we didnt chat with each other very long. i'm happy she change le and change to straight. now she still like a guy. me also change too. i also try to like butch but not success. coz i have feel for guys. maybe i'm bisexual. although now i didnt change much in apperance but in heart i change to be bisexual. why cant lesbian survive in this country ma. being like a mature woman like me, it's not stupid. coz love seed can be grown in part of the heart. dunno where la, haha. but now i really confirm i like her. i can wait and slowly grown up.
Well now i like this gal whose is my type wat i really wanna it. she's mature, fat, appearance ok ok. but she like to make up, but i'm ok with it. coz i use to it last time like my ex la. but now difference la, coz i, myself is fat ma, coz i dun wanna my expectation high la... =p juz be herself, i'm ok la. things can go on smoothly. ya i'm daydreaming again. haha' sometime i will memorise wat my frenz and y uncle say, to me is like a motivation to me. i really wanna be with this gal i like in my workin place area. although i met her 2 days a wk in my workin place area. juz like i say like can be nuture. =) i'm not stupid to wait. coz i'm truthful to her.
but la, my frenz say i'm havent grown up la, coz she tell me to put my heart in work and not in love la. also put my heart in family too. it's the fact la, i cant escape it man. tomorrow i will go find job, although my colleague tell me to go find a hotel line job work for few mths to get experiemce and easiler to find job too. =) now i wanna save money ba so i can go eat my frenz's dessert, wat i really wan in my list. also hotel job is very stressful job, i dun have tat courage to go. i feel tat my standard still havent reach yet in my cheesecake shop. i do cheesecake is edible but crumble. so i always do it in my heart and tink wat's went wrong. cheesecake is like my gf. need to like her so she give me a encouragement to me. haha.
well my frenz confiscated my cigarette a day, i cant tahun le, i feel like vomitting, and headache and muscle pain too. i feel better after i eat panadol. i will eat panadol extra strong whenever i have pain and headache and feel like vomitting. i feel tat is not a gd signal la. but juz dun care la. i feel tat is digestive system is actin slow since i eat too much le. i will eat panadol when it's necessary. but finish almost a box in a mth or 2 mth. i dunno, when i c the box juz left 2 pills. haha. so sorry i eat too much le.No worries to my frenz who readin... haha. i'm fine all along. if really happen to be sick, den will be fated, but i will say miracle coz my dad and i hope for tat to be happen in my uncle, A miracle.. =) daydreaming again.
Anyway like is juz a word, but action to like is a prove to her. =p daydreaming again. haha i will kanna say by my frenz again. not grown up yet. =p my uncle will say me too la. he's my motivator and my frenz also too.. i'm gonna sleep. i didnt see finish this les blog. she update again. this time talk abt the relationship i really like wat she say is interesting. talk abt les stuff. so i can get a better understanding in it. although u are not les, but when u met a person who's not a guy but a gal give u happiness. this is the fact ba. coz i did c in the youtube she put her wedding picture and throught in the church like ROM one la, she's really happy with her wife in the marriage. den end of the video she say the person i met is not a guy but a gal, she give me happiness, i love u very much. =p haha. well, this really make me feel happy. hoping too much. ok ok i will stop daydreaming le. i going sleep now. nite nite
Posted by Ah Jac at 1:36 AM