well i drink too much yesterday. today my stomach keep on groanin and bloatin. i dun have the appetite to eat. today i eat fish soup noodle at food court. In the end, i waste it coz i eat le feel like vomittin. coz i'm havin some prob with my digestive system. haha. tml i'm going to drink again. haha my frenz treat me again. i will drink till a limit.
Well i'm chasin a gal juz recently. I miss her now. ^_^
anyway i gotta find a stable job, like this hangin out will cost me alot. Haiz... Aiya
Posted by Ah Jac at 8:26 PM
Monday, September 15, 2008
wan a carefree life
I wanna be lonely i wanna be a item tat doesnt need to move,tink, worry, last long forever till it spoil,rust. i wanna be animal tat juz move wherever u wan, juz do wat u wan, wont live long, tat's the end for animal. i dun wanna have this feelin. i wanna go to my house, my room and close the door. i wanna be quiet,no talkin to family, frenz, juz in the room only me, juz only listen to the air,bird outside my window, walkin footstep, dun need to talk. i wanna be like this. but i cant. i have frenz,family,close ppl to me. i can be listener, i dun like talkin. talkin does have funny way,does have hurtin way, does have lame way, does have boring way, does have stuck in the middle way. me choose to be silent way. i hate tat part time job, i should say i still not use to it, cant give up halfway, frenz give me a opportunity to see a new road. i shouldnt do this to let my frenz down. i hate myself like hell. i wanna scold myself to wake up. i drink so much of beer and alcohol end up i'm drunk and feel umcomfortable,vomit out. i'm a fucker. i'm so damn fuck. i dun like this job yet i drink is to forget this damn fuck feelin. next day i work a use to it job, yet test my skill is it i'm gettin faster so can catch up in the new job. i'm now so damn fuck.am i interested or should i say i'm a fucker tat doesnt tink of a plan. ya. so true tat i tell myself i'm a idiot,bastard,SOB,fucker,stupid,lame gal. i'm so fucked up with myself. SOB!!!!! FUCK U-> IS ME. fuck,fuck,fuCK. i'm so damn a fucker. useless fucker fucker now writin this mean i wanna shout out to my blog tat i dun wanna have this feelin in my heart. dun wanna tink tat concern this things. i'M A FUCKER FUCKER, i wanna tell mu blog tat i'm unhappy currently. FUCK FUCK,FUCK HATE MYSELF,FUCKER ME A FUCKER TAT NO BRAIN SLOW THINKER SLOW IN LEARNING,FUCKER TAT ME A FUCKER/. hate it fuck ffffffffffffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuuuucccccccccckkkkkkkkkk this stupid fucker of me, jac aka jackie useless gal in the world, stupid idiot fucker sob of jac.
now i tell u tat i juz write for fun, u dun like this vulgar u can dun read it. sory to let u see this update blog. sorry. thk for ur inconveninence. tat's all sory
Posted by Ah Jac at 1:49 AM
Thursday, September 11, 2008
juZ UpdaTIng
Hi.. I'm juz updatin my blog. well i was hopin to make myself busy. Well i feel sian coz i hope tml faster come so i can work in the hotel, so i can forget the timing and dun wanna stress at home like hell. coz i also hopin to c my wedding cake on the sat and also going my frenz's birthday party. haha.. well i feel boring at home, i now write my blog to waste my time. i thought i can work in the ice cream shop, but the schedule of mine is not the same as wat the boss wan. LOL. i dun wanna quit the job, coz it's ok. i always keep quiet and my job i do very slowly. oh i'm fucker. so damn idiot fucker... I wanna waste my time now. i feel tat i'm busy this wk but next wk wont be le. coz i'm juz the same as usual. my sis have a item together. me is single but available. lol.
oh no. i wanna go out also gotta be alone le la.. she will be busy with her item and her work and her study. i muz make myself busy, but i really have nothing to do, juz helpin my mum moppin the floor and take the clothes out. oh ya. i cut my hair again. this time really damn short. well it's not up to their requirement so no choice. i'm damn sad c my hair cut short. haha. well i like this haircut. coz i find it tat first time cut this hairstyle.
well tat's all gotta say. take care guy and thk for readin it.
Posted by Ah Jac at 2:46 PM
introduction of me...
hihi..my name is jac,21.chi name is shuling.me workin part time at cheesecake shop.study part time diploma in baking.My thinkin N dream is going oversea to work,learn,study,realize.I'm sory and feel bad to let my parent worryin me.
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