Sunday, March 8, 2009

juz wanna update..

hihi.. tonite juz wanna update my blog of how i'm doin.. Well i have to say i'm jobless again. and also hard to find job due to economic bad. i'm not really jobless la juz gettin lesser workin days. now i'm juz wanna tink wat should i do for the time being, and continue with my bakin in some other ways, to earn some more money... well studying my course still on till next yr ba. i happen alot of things in my life.. well it's long story... well my life still moving on and on. now i'm single again. i'm no more patching up with my second ex gf, i'm totally no feelin for her. so the day itself, i say the truthful words to her. and once more i hurt her again. everyone willl say i'm bad gal. coz i start relationship with her and end this relationship is me too.. well i dun wanna tink abt it whenever i c her pic, i feel bad and heart pain.

well i tink why i have this feelin, but i knoe the ans, i'm feelin empty and of course i c couple in the public, i feel more empty and more lonely. well i stop tinkin abt it, i will juz tink of my cakes and pastry to stop tinkin abt tat. well i'm happy in sch coz i can c a gal who's my type i like. and most glad tat my practical room can see through her practical room. i will keep on seein her whenever i have time. sometime i will give some of my cake product to her class eat juz wanna have a chance to get closer to her. well i'm happy to see her 2 days a wk. i haven make frenz with her. i wanna knoe her better. i decide this chance tml to make frenz with her. coz last wk i miss the chance coz i can get the chance to say hi, but i ignore coz my classmate is beside me and she will tell me to chase her and advice how to get her. i'm regret tat i never say hi. i feel tat to make frenz with her is by fate. cant force the things to do watever u like, it wont have happiness. i feel this way. so i rather let it be natural way. but i scare i get hurt first when i make frenz with her, i feel sad if she have a bf. i will feel lose in the way. tat's another reason i didnt make frenz with her first ba. anyway i gotta see how the things goes, i will juz follow it up. if i cant step in, i wont step, i dun mind gettin hurt, i use to the hurt i have it in my ex. i understand the thing and experience from my surroundin, family,frenz,workin. i still have things tat i dun really understand.
And one more things i'm going another trip with my cousin to a'famosa resort at malacca,malaysia. this time i will spend less and tink wat to buy first before buyin. coz last trip is at feb, now is march trip. oh dear..oh ya i'm going on the 19 march come back on 21 march.
anyway i stop here today. i will update again another time

thank u for seeing my blog, take care everyone

Posted by Ah Jac at 11:42 PM