Monday, December 8, 2008

juz update

Hi juz wanna update my blog since it's very long never update le... well i broke up with her le and i realize alot of things when i'm with her. she make me tired even how hard i wanna get along with her. now i give up le. she insist she wanna patch up again. but i'm tired coz i'm workin 2 part times job juz to get money coz of her. coz of workin, our meetin time is less. tat's y my feelin is being ceased coz of it. anyway i'm now workin 2 part time job and part time study. it's still gonna go on coz i needed money, well one of the reason i dun like patch with her coz she always tell me she have no money make me feel more tired coz i need to work in order to pay her and mine when we going out. and i wont buy things tat i wan it. coz gotta save for her. now money to me is sensitive coz of economic bad and my mother. she ask me when salary pay in, i feel vexed whenever she ask me. i dun like it. the more my ex gf the more i'm tired i am. now whenever i meet her, i juz treat her as a frenz, but she's the one who keep on emo to me and show how ill and sad she is to tell everyone abt it. i dun like it, but her frenz say she's like tat. i would rather dun meet her even her frenz ask me out. but her birhtday is coming, i tink she wanna a patch out with me if she wish. i dunno wat to do. nowadays i juz only tink of my workin and my baking stuff. i did tink of her in the days we been together but i feel tired. now i den update my blog coz i have things happening to me. i feel vexed coz of my mum and ex gf and my workin. sometime becoz of my mum i feel like movin out coz of her being control, feel more stress and did cry out alone and my ex gf hug. sometime i dun wanna feel this feeling. anyway now i back to usual, juz workin, after workin very tired juz go home rest. sometime my frenz ask me out will meet them but i wont take taxi home. coz i dun wan waste it. my frenz understand me juz only my ex gf doesnt understand how's my situation in the past. now she wanna understand it, doesnt she feel it's too late le me. she wanna change herself now coz of me, sorry i dun like to be a boss for u. my attitude still havent change as usual. i hate myself sometime too. but i will always be patient with everything except my ex gf, she make me impatient whenever i with her and her frenz. i dunno y. so i feel like dun meet her coz of this. anyway it's already a past to me. wat i wanna say she knoe le. the same things. i can do it is becoz of my family and my workin. i dun wan to be affected coz of this. i can understand my first love make me heartbroken, so u are the second one i break up i also understand and dun wan be like my old shell like last time. anyway now this is how my life going, so so sorry never update, oh ya, u wanna see my pic. i will update in my friendster. hehe. u will see my second ex gf. so thank for seeing my blogs, take care everyone^_^

Posted by Ah Jac at 2:05 PM